hiblog, did you miss me.
so many things thought, somehow when i come here, my mind's a blank.
starting with th results, im sure im going to fail everything except english, chinese and ss.
with all th teachers already giving up on me, im not going to try anything too.

im tired.

how should i start, i dont even know how to phrase my thoughts into words.
it cant flow as seamlessly as it used to in th past, i wonder what happened.
some things to me are, how to say, th feeling is kind of like listening to a song on repeat.
at first, it's so addictive. enthralling, entrancing, gratifying. isn't it enrapturing.

after listening a countless number of times, it starts to get dull.
you stop listening to it, skip th song when it comes on, no longer spellbound to it.
studies are one thing, work is another thing, but then many other stuffs to me are not this way.

one of th stuffs is feelings.
even after years, i cant let go of feelings.
how can you even forget th mass amount of emotion you put into things.
people i know doesnt even seem to care, how can one forget so easily.

dont you know, im afraid.
yes, you dont fucking know how much all this means to me.
why. how can i care so much when you dont even care a single bit.
what am i going to do then, what can i even do, what's going to happen.

when you read this, will you know that im talking about you.
will you even care enough to wonder who im talking about, or even read this.
everytime i think about th future, im completely uncertain, apprehensive.
how to say, just this, i really treasure friendship. please dont let it just waste away.

even if you ask me who i won't say th truth, i will just lie, because will you even remember.