that time i saw this leaf so chio,
then i go take picture.
first time i see heartshaped leaf. Haha.

i feel so confused right now.
.....................
fuck you, why u make me think of so much.
i don want t jump from th hurt of hatred to you. because.

hai.

i haven made a proper post here in ages.
everytime i come here, im so agitated to type properly.
angry, sad, depressed, happy, i dont know.
now, i seriously feel tired.

fuck, how many days did it take for this load of shit to happen.
in a short period of time, so many things changed.
now, in class i cant fucking concentrate because i can
only think and think and think about.

u like to make my life hell?

u seriously think i can just feel.

i thought i could.
really, i thought i really could.
but, i cant.

im like stuck in this fucking abyss then i cant get out of.
seriously, i don know what to say to you.
like, idk how t reply.

i know.
so why do i still hope.
maybe i should stop talking.
distance myself.

try to make myself forget.
it will hurt, so much so much,
unbearable, but idk how else.

since its impossible,
just stop it.

do u know i think constantly.
idk how to stop myself from thinking.